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Mississippi River near Fridley, Minn. (c) Gabriel Vanslette/Wikimedia

Life Saving Quaker Practice

Peaceful spot along a riverbank.

Mississippi River near Fridley, Minn. © Gabriel Vanslette/Wikimedia

Although I’ve participated in Quaker worship for 25 years, it took a diagnosis of brain cancer for me to take on a wholehearted commitment to daily waiting worship.

I was diagnosed with glioblastoma, the most aggressive kind of brain cancer, in 2015. After a year of surgeries, chemo, radiation, and experimental treatments, I completed all of the available medical treatment in 2016. My prognosis was still not good. Average survival after this diagnosis is a year and a half. I knew that I wanted to continue some kind of treatment.

I live close to the Mississippi River, and before that time, I had occasionally gone to the river to pray. When my medical treatment ended, I decided to make daily Quaker worship next to the river my ongoing treatment. For the past year, I’ve been sitting silently next to the river every day, with the intention of listening for and following the Spirit’s movements. I see the trees, birds, and river next to me as fellow worshippers in community with me. I take this treatment as seriously as I took chemo and  radiation.

Like in meeting for worship, most thoughts that arise during my treatment are from a shallow place in my busy mind and not something with spiritual power. The river keeps inviting me to place those in the river and let them pass.

When messages with spiritual power do arise, I jot them down and ask if the message is just for me, for another particular person, or for a group. Occasionally, the messages turn into an article, like this. Mostly, though, I sit and watch the river go past.

Many messages have become letters of gratitude or reconciliation to people in my life—such as acknowledging what I learned of God’s love from my pre-school teacher, or apologizing for my misuse of power in a past job. Some messages lead to conversations. Many days, like in meeting, there aren’t any messages, just sitting in waiting worship. Other days, a great blue heron will have a message delivered through a graceful flight above the water in front of me. Sometimes a turtle walks slowly across my path, eldering me in the ways of patience and persistence. The 100-year-old cottonwood trees around me season what I think is ministry, helping me test if it is a message with weight, or one to return to the river.

Research is increasingly showing the health benefits of being in beautiful natural places, especially in contemplative ways. Even more than the health benefits, my commitment to the river continues to grow because of how I experience it opening me more fully to the sacred river that is the foundation of our worship.  

I’m now six months past the average survival for my diagnosis, and one year into my daily worship at the river.  I don’t assume my worship at the river will cure me, but I continue to trust that this treatment is an essential part of my healing.  When I now sit in worship with other humans, I feel my friends at the river holding us in the sunlight, grounding us in generative soil, and cleansing us in the watershed.

Michael Bischoff lives in Minneapolis, Minn.


Posted in: Quaker Lifestyles, Viewpoint

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8 Responses to Life Saving Quaker Practice

  1. Harvey Gillman January 22, 2018 at 2:30 pm #

    City & State
    Rye, England
    The world being a place of sacredness is full of ministry. Our task is just to be, to listen, and if necessary to respond. Thank you for this article.

  2. Ralph Beebe January 22, 2018 at 3:47 pm #

    City & State
    Newberg
    Michael, thank you so much. I find your message inspiring! May Jesus continue to bless you, and to bless me and others through you!

    Ralph Beebe, Prof. of History Emeritus
    George Fox University, Newberg, OR 97132

  3. Sharon January 22, 2018 at 5:36 pm #

    City & State
    Traverse City, Michigan
    Michael, I am humbled and inspired and thinking about where in northern Michigan I can follow your lead for daily practice. Having been on dialysis for years followed by a transpant, I find your equating your daily practice and medical treatment to be both true and helpful. I have wondered if I would ever have the courage to return to dialysis if needed. With what you have written in mind, I think, for the first time, that I might. Thank you so much.

  4. Neftali Fernandez January 22, 2018 at 9:01 pm #

    City & State
    Ft Lauderdale Florida
    Michael, God keep you healthy and thank you for inspiring me to look for treatments in nature.

  5. Vivian Barty-Taylor January 23, 2018 at 3:05 am #

    City & State
    Den Hoorn, ZH, The Netherlands
    Dear Michael,
    Like you, I have lived far beyond the expectations of the doctors with an inoperable brain tumour, and I am also a Quaker. I have also followed highly unorthodox treatments and continue to do so to this day. My “connection” is through music, which has been my passion since before my diagnosis (24 years ago, when I was ten.) As a composer I have explored the natural tunings in music which connect our auditory system directly to the incoming frequencies without distortion. I have been on a personal “quest” to find beauty, both to sustain myself and to share with others.
    If you would like to correspond more, please do get in touch — info(at)vivbt.nl
    Best wishes, in Friendship,
    Vivian.

  6. Thomas January 23, 2018 at 7:17 pm #

    City & State
    Hong Kong
    Beautiful article Michael, glad to hear you are enjoying nature.

  7. Ricardo Lopez January 25, 2018 at 2:22 pm #

    City & State
    Albany, NY
    Bravo and thanks for passing such a beautiful message. The way I see it, you are becoming one with the river, whether the cancer takes your body or not, it won’t take the real you. It’s exactly the kind of peace I’ve found in dealing with my cancer, myeloma, thru communing with everything and everybody around me open to communion. Nature always is, people (including myself) sometime are. Blessings, life and peace to you!

  8. June-Etta Chenard January 28, 2018 at 8:44 pm #

    City & State
    St. Catharines, Ontario
    Thank you, Michael, for this inspiring message, reminding me that I used to prefer to make my practice of Quaker worship outside in natural surroundings. Somehow, over the years, I have wandered away from this knowledge and practice. I wish you continued well-being, through your powerful attitude, and enhanced by your river connection. In appreciation, and Friendship, June-Etta Chenard

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